Josselyn

jjr2312 @ 2003-09-02T11:13:00

2003-09-02T15:24:56Z

So this weekend was good with the exception that I had to work on Saturday but other than that everything was good. Sunday I went to the beach with D and we met up with Budde and Arianna. It wasn't all that crowded, which is good and there were waves so they were all surfing. I kinda just sat back and watched them because of course I got a nose bleed. It's been happening a lot lately and I'm not sure why so I guess I should go to the doctor right?

Soooo after the beach we came back to my place and shower and watch Bringing Down the House until Terry called. Her and V invited us over to a party that there was at Bongos...the only problem was that it was 21 and over but we decided winging it and went anyway. Luckily we got in and we had a really good time. Terry was REALLY drunk and humping the bongos so needless to say we laughed a lot. Afterwards we went back to D's house and of course my nose started bleeding again for another 15 minutes striaght (i'm slightly annoyed).Then yesterday we went with them to Dadeland cause they had to get dresses for a wedding...how cute. After we did that we went to Cheescake Factory and that was just yum in itself. But then D and I had to go to her dad's house and eat so we felt like heifers by the end of the night.

Have to go to work now so I'm done. =0(

Back to Escuela

2003-08-25T22:49:01Z

Mmmm definetly had escuela today at the butt crack of dawn. Woke up at about 7:30 and left for FIU at 7:15. Surely enough I didn't get there till about 7:50 and even then parking was fan-fuckin-tabulous so no I didn't park till 8:00 am, which is when I'm supposed to be in the actual classroom. Mmmmm gotta say that I admit being 2 minutes away from school, but whatever I'll live. I knew I wasn't at UCF anymore as soon as I saw the Louis Vitton and Coach brands flying all over the damn place. Not to mention the upright chests and did I forget to mention the stick up everyone's ass??? It's ok though, the only ones with any of the above mentioned traits were the homos so it's all good. =0.

Classes were fun though. I had my Homicide class at 8:00, which normally I would dread but the material seems quite interesting so I'm willing to wake up early. Afterwards I had my Judicial Policy Making class, which is instructed by a very very large lesbian, she's cool though. Ended my school day off with Italian, which was amusing. I never knew it would be that confusing with grammar and pronunciations but I'll learn...I'd better if I'm going next summer!

Hope all you kids have fun at school

Time to start a new book

2003-07-15T06:00:12Z

My entire life I've had trust issues with everybody, even certain family members. For a good portion I thought that trust was something that was given to everyone until they prove to you that they're not worthy of being trusted but that quickly changed about five years ago.

Jesse is one of two people who I can completly trust. I can tell him whatever I want and know that he wont say anything to anyone. It might be because of the fact that Jess doesn't give two shits about gossip so he could care less about going around telling people things but either way, he's one of the most trustworthy people in my life. He's always been there for me when I needed him to be and I know he always will be.

Then there's Dacci. Honesty and candor are two virtues that I knew I would always be able to appreciate in a person and to m surprise I've finally received it. Whenever we talk and I mean really talk about the future or issues we're having I can always expect a full fledged honest answer no question about it. Ever since day one she's told me exactly how she feels about everything. The thing is that I've been plagued by partial truths my entire life so I automatically presumed that the same would occur with her. She's proved me wrong every time I thought that would happen. Despite this fact, I've still had a small "trust issue" so to speak and I've just made certain situations much more difficult than they needed to be.

Tonight she gave me the best advice that anyone could have ever given me....I have to start all over. I've been holding the same standards to her that everyone has applied but she doesn't belong in the same category as everyone else. She's different, far different from anyone else. She'll tell me exactly how she feels and exactly how things are. There's no beating around the bush or sugar coating of any sort when we talk, she says things exactly the way they are. So because of this, I came to the realization tonight I need to start over with a clean slate and stop expecting the same from her that I've received from everyone else. I'm not just doing it because I came to some self discovery, I'm doing it because I'm in this one for the long run and I know that it's going to last an eternity.

I do trust you and if you tell me something then I'm going to believe you, not 99% cause that's not good enough. I'm going to believe you 100% because you deserve that trust...I'm sorry.

jjr2312 @ 2003-04-09T00:09:00

2003-04-09T04:09:58Z

I miss her but I lost my chance and shes moved on...

jjr2312 @ 2003-03-24T14:47:00

2003-03-24T19:52:08Z

Deceit's a bitch...

She's the best!

2002-10-03T22:01:39Z

I've come to the conclusion that my girlfriend is the best ever. I was bitching about my room being a mess last night and when I came home from school today, Ash had cleaned it all up for me. Then, she left me a note with my To Do List. It's kinda sad that she has to do that for me because I suck so much, but at least she tries to help me out as much as she can. Thanks baby!!

I feel really bad cause she's going to have to work for me all next weekend since I have to take it off. I'm going to Fort Blanding for Field Training Reactions and it's basically mandatory, so I can't work. The thing is, yeah I'm not going to have to go to work, but I'm gonna be getting my ass kicked up there. I really appreciate Ash working for me.

I've been thinking a lot lately about things. Yes I've been working a lot, and yes I've had to do a lot of school work, and yes I've hardly gotten any sleep, and yes I dont have time for anything, but I'm happy. I have friends that I'm happy with, my family is doing well, school isn't all that bad, and I've got a girlfriend who I wouldn't give up for anything in the world. Things with Ashley are perfect and just the way they should be and I don't I've ever been happier. The only thing that I'm bummed out about is the fact that her mom is coming tonight and she's not leaving until Monday so I don't get to spend much time with her. Oh well, her mom will be gone soon and then things will be just as perfect as they were before she was here.

jjr2312 @ 2002-09-10T21:38:00

2002-09-11T03:10:39Z

It's been an awfully long time since I've posted in here. Why? Because I'm either always at work or school or waking up really early for ROTC. If I do in fact have any free time, I dont have enough energy to do anything so yea. The only thing I HAVE had time to do is think about a couple of things, but mostly I just think about what I'm going to do with my life. I'm going to have to make some decisions in the near future that can change my life forever. I have to decide what I want to do with ROTC and that's going to be a big factor in my relationship.

I wake up every morning and ask myself how I could be so lucky to have her love me the way she does. There's not a day that goes by where I don't thank God for having blessed me the way he did. If you asked me a couple of months ago if I could love her any more than I already did I'd say no. I guess that's because I couldn't fathom loving her the way that I do. I don't feel complete unless she's with me every moment of everyday and I know it may sound corny or whatever, but that's what I feel.

"...and it seems like I can't live a day without you..."

jjr2312 @ 2002-09-10T21:38:00

2002-09-11T03:10:34Z

jjr2312 @ 2002-08-29T20:44:00

2002-08-30T00:38:25Z

Was it just me or did anyone else notice how damn hott P!NK looked tonight?!?!?!

P.S. Why the fuck were the Olsen twins there???????

jjr2312 @ 2002-07-12T00:58:00

2002-07-12T05:00:18Z

Don't ever try and pull any type of bullshit on any of my friends ever again cause things will get even fucking uglier next time.

Community Living Space

2002-07-06T09:28:31Z

Why are there random people sleeping on my couch?...Actually, why are there random people sleeping on my couch asking me to close my bedroom door?

jjr2312 @ 2002-06-25T16:30:00

2002-06-25T20:42:28Z

The past few days have been interesting. My family flew in from Miami on Sunday at about 8 a.m. and about 10 minutes after I got on the 417, my back tire just completly went flat. I thought that it wasn't going to be a big deal because my dad was there and I also knew how to change a tire, so hooray!! Negative. Turns out that I didn't have the wrench or anything to do what needed to be done. So some guy stops to help us and he got four of the five bolts off with his wrench but he can't get the fifth one off. Why you may ask? Well, it turns out that one of the bolts needs a special wrench because it has a lock on it. So we were stuck on 417 for 2 hours and then we finally got it fixed. After that whole thing, we went to BP so my family can see where I work (yay) and then we went to Downtown Disney to walk around. But before we went to Downtown Disney, we went to Cracker Barrel for some lunch!!! Ash and I took them to the airport about 4 and they almost didn't make their flight. Afterwards, we went to the Florida Mall and bought the Stitch dolls at the Disney store. For those of you who haven't seen it, you suck!!

Yesterday was my birthday. I had to go to the VW dealership when I woke up to buy the wrench and I did that so yay for me. Then I went with Ash grocery shopping because she was going to make me dinner and then we went to Blockbuster and rented "The Deep End of the Ocean" with Michelle Pfeifer (I think that's how you spell it) and it was really good. I've developed a new found love for her after watching "I Am Sam" where she looked oh so hot. After Ash made me dinner, we came to my place where the roomies and Emily made me a birthday cake which was really sweet and we watched Legally Blonde. So that was my day!

jjr2312 @ 2002-06-20T20:40:00

2002-06-21T00:54:14Z

Yeah so I hate my brain at this point in time. I really dont know why it's so retared but it is. Grrrr enough about that. Ashley went home this morning at about 6 something. I miss her a lot and I really want her to come back. Now!!!!

Celine Dion rocks!

2002-06-08T22:06:16Z

Yesterday was Ashley's birthday and it was also the day of our Y-100 concert. I didn't know what to get Ash for her birthday, so I decided to take her somewhere instead. I really hope she likes it. I wish could have stayed home longer too because her mom is having a family get together thing on sunday for their birthday and she's not gonna be able to be there, so I feel really bad because I know she wants to be there more than anything.

After I got off of work yesterday, we went to the airport and almost missed our flight but luckily we didn't. When we got to Miami we headed to my sisters place and then over to the concert. The concert itself was alright, but oh my did Celine Dion rock my socks. She kicked sooooo much ass it wasn't even even funny. The whole arena was standing up and cheering for her. She performed "That's The Way It Is", "A New Day", and two more songs from her new album but I forgot their names. Michelle Branch also kicked a lot of ass. She performed a new song which was oh so cool and she looked really hott too. Points for her! OH OH...Steven Tyler was also there, how cool is that? He performed "Walk This Way" with The Calling which was interesting but hey it worked out fine. Let'see, who else was there???? This new group MSM, they were ok but I think this one girl dropped her ass on the stage cause she was shaking it too damn much...waaaaaaay too much. Vanessa Carlton (she's not too cute), Paulina Rubia (sucked), FABULOUS (enough said), The Calling, O-Town, and Craig David (veery cute and awesome accent). So yea it was a pretty good concert but oh so long. I think it was like five hours but whatever, Celine Dion and Michelle Branch were very much worth the wait.

jjr2312 @ 2002-06-06T22:59:00

2002-06-07T02:59:58Z

you dont care

jjr2312 @ 2002-06-06T22:12:00

2002-06-07T02:13:23Z

I dont know why I try to deny things in my mind...I know it's gonna happen

Completly and utterly lost somehow

2002-05-20T17:36:48Z

The past few days, I've felt about every emotion that you can classify under sadness. I was lost and I didn't know what to do with myself because my happiness was gone and when you've lost that, you feel like you've lost everything. We broke up on our ten month anniversary because there were issues that needed to be handled and I think they have been taken care of now. We're back together, which makes me extremly happy, but it's scary knowing that you can lose your girlfriend at any instant. There are still some things that need to be talked about, but I'm just happy that I have her back.

On a different note, I went to see P!NK last night. Oh baby, oh baby. She is one of the hottest bitches ever and she's so damn gay it's not even funny. She was all up on her guitarist and she licked her face. Then P!NK was like all touching herself and stuff. She really didn't have to do all that, I would've totally helped her out...Oh well. When we first got there, I didn't think the concert was gonna be all that cause there were a bunch of little kids with their parents who were drunk off of their asses and there were hardly any lezzies. Once the intermission came though, things were different because there were sooooo many lezzies. So basically, it felt more like a P!NK concert with all the gay people there. We'll soon to have pictures from the concert and I'm waiting for one in particular.

Fate...

2002-04-26T10:33:20Z

Fate...you owe me hours upon hours of sleep!!!

We love you Emily!!!

2002-04-26T03:48:45Z

So we've basically been studying ALL day for our History final tomorrow, which is going to be a bitch. I was on campus in the computer lab for about three hours and Ashley and Crystal went home cause Crystal wasn't feeling well. When I got home I told Ashley that I could study wreally well in there for some reason and that I wanted to go back later, so we did at about 8:00. We were there until about 10:30 and then we went to Dunkin Donuts to get some ice cream and then we were going to BP to study some more. Well on the way over there Emily called me and I thought that she just wanted to call to say hi, but apparently not. When Ashley and I got to BP, Emily called asking where we were and Ashley told her. I think Emily got kinda sad cause she had bought Ashley, Crystalm and myself three pints of Ben and Jerry's ice cream and she burnt us a studying CD, but we weren't home so she felt ridiculous. You shouldn't feel ridiculous at all. It was super sweet, the ice cream was good, and the CD kicks ass. You're our best friend and we love you baby. We're here for you just as much as you're there for us and we always will be.

Faboo Day

2002-04-08T06:00:24Z

Today was such a great day! I woke up at about 11:30, which is really 12:30 (curse daylight savings), and I stayed at Ashley's till about 5:00. We came back to my place to study a bit but didn't get much of that done because Jezi called and wanted to do something, so of course we said ok. Ash, Crystal, Emily, Jezi, Lauren, and I went to Fantasia Golf, which was soooooo much fun. Afterwards, we rushed to Downtown Disney because Crystal, being the beast she is =), wanted a pretzel and the bitch at the little stand closed at 10:45 instead of 11:00. We ended up going to Steak N Shake, where I almost kicked this guys ass for saying that he wished Celine Dion hadn't made a comeback. As soon as we were done, Emily and I decided that we had to pee very badly but chose not to pee at Steak N Shake for no reason whatsoever. Lol, we drove around for a bit and Emily almost stabbed my eyes out cause I stopped at Taco Bell so we could pee but they were closed, so we went to the classiest gas station we've ever seen and went to the bathroom in the peach flavored shit stall. Finally, we came back home and I'm about to go sleep cause I'm one tired mofo. Goodnight!

Faboo Day

2002-04-08T06:00:04Z

Interesting...

2002-04-01T16:55:44Z

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Great Easter

2002-04-01T04:34:03Z

Today was a whole lot of fun. We got to sleep in a little bit because everybody was tired so when we finally woke up we all decided to meet at Fred's around 3:30. Of course it's us and that didn't happen so whatever. We made burgers, mashed potatos, broccoli, pasta salad, and I think there was something else but I can't remember so whatever. It was really cute cause we all sat down and ate as a family not to mention the food was really good. Marlene was really sweet and she brought us all Easter baskets, which she didn't have to do but it was appreciated by all of us. Ashley got me a cute basket as well with a bunny and skittles and starbursts yum yum...Anyhoo after we ate, we all jumped in the pool and then went to watch Congo. I think everybody was tired as sin because I certainly was and I'm not feeling well at all. I think I'm going to get sick and I dont like this.

Partially true...

2002-03-19T02:32:28Z

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Back Home

2002-03-16T21:54:43Z

Yup yup, I'm back at home again. I'm happy but at the same time I'm sad. Ever since I've left home I've appreciated my mother so much more but I think now I do more than ever. She hasn't really done anything in particular, I guess its just everything she does. I really hate it when I have to leave Miami to come back here and leave her all sad. I really hate it when she cries but I hate it even worse when she's crying about me. She wants me to move back home but I'm not and I kinda feel bad about it but I know I wont be happy there.

Anyhoo, now that I'm back home I get to read a 300 hundred page book and write an essay by tomorrow. So needless to say no one's going to be seeing much of me.

Happy 8 month anniversary baby!